Songs without a melody

calmmysoul: Re-learning how to play Last Time. It’s been about...

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 23:05:45 +0200

Re-learning how to play Last Time. It’s been about 4 years. Excited to play it again from now on!

…I can still remember how we played our version of Last Time for Paper Route when they were on tour over here in germany.

…That was really special :) I remeber how they told us that they haven’t played it for a long time

Superman

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 21:44:00 +0100

My palms bleed truth.

Fairytales that fare well.

I write poems with my palms.

These lyrics become pslams.

You cry in my arms and say

Don’t ever leave me. Please,

Protect me – don’t let me…go.

You take me high. Let Love fly.

Be my Superman – I know you can.

I never looked for love, but it finally found me.

Your chains of love (are) wrapped around me.

It is your words that leave me haunted.

And your name? I’ve sworn to it.

-Be my Superman, I know you can-

If I were to propose – I already made my choice – It was you who chose

Open air, without a care - We would wear the grandest garms

I pull you close as You cry in my arms and say

Don’t ever leave me. Please,

Protect me – don’t let me…go.

You take me high. Let Love fly.

Be my Superman – I know you can.

Hating you is exhausting

Sat, 02 Feb 2013 18:24:23 +0100

Hating you is so exhausting.

Just the thought is tiresome.

Even when I’m lonesome and down, I can’t help but drown in memories.

I’m running away from you

But I can’t hide from my heart.

I try to ignore you

But I just adore you more

I close my eyes

But all I see are framed photographs of your face.

I tear them down

I wish I’d see you frown just to give me a second of grace.

Hating you is so exhausting.

Just the thought is tiresome.

Even when I’m lonesome and down, I can’t help but drown in memories.

I’m at the end of my wits

I planned on having kids with you. Buy a house, get a dog.

I miss you.

I try so hard to muster up hate – honestly I’m hoary.

Hating you is so exhausting.

Just the thought is tiresome.

Even when I’m lonesome and down, I can’t help but drown in memories.

Don’t hate me…. Don’t hate me when I say the things you don’t want to hear Don’t judge me… Don’t...

Thu, 06 Dec 2012 01:16:00 +0100

Don’t hate me….

Don’t hate me when I say the things you don’t want to hear

Don’t judge me…

Don’t judge me when I tell you again.

Cause Darling…

Love is a battlefield

I might say it wrong, it may seem not right

You’ll put up a fight, I’ll yell through the night

I don’t want a tear and you never should fear

To tell me what’s on your mind…

The truth is never a crime

Baby you’ll always be mine

You shall always be mine

Don’t leave me

Don’t leave me when things get hard babe

Just hold me

Just hold me when I said the wrong thing twice

Oh Darling…

Love is a battlefield

I might say it wrong, it may seem not right

You’ll put up a fight, I’ll yell through the night

I don’t want a tear and you never should fear

To tell me what’s on your mind…

The truth is never a crime

Baby you’ll always be mine

I’m your soldier – I told ya

I’ll never let go (of ya)

Whatever may come

How thunder may drum

You and I, will always watch the rise of the sun

We’ll watch the rise of the sun together.

He’s got so many things he wants to tell her. And he’s got so many things he wants to show her. It’s...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 14:49:52 +0200

He’s got so many things he wants to tell her.

And he’s got so many things he wants to show her.

It’s more than love and lust.

It’s…I don’t know…just…

Kiss me. Say that you’ll miss me.

I had no good love baby since you’ve been gone.

I had so much trouble and misery, baby please come home.

She’s got so many things she wants to tell him.

And she’s got so many things she wants to show him.

It’s more than love and lust.

It’s…I don’t know…just…

Kiss me. Say that you’ll miss me.

I had no good love baby since you’ve been gone.

I had so much trouble and misery, baby please come home.

If I could build a house,

I’d built you a fortress.

If I could, Miss,

I’d wrap these words up for you.

I won’t leave you alone, I’ll make our house a home.

Like A Mermaid

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 13:47:59 +0200

You’re just like a Mermaid.

Only in my dreams. So I can’t have u.

But I’m under your spell…

with no chance of rescue.

My tears fall down on this sheet.

My chest burning with every single beat.

And I realize, I can’t make you love me.

No, I don’t wanna make you fall for me.

And No! We can’t be friends.

I’ve got to love you or I have to hate you./let go off you

I should forget about you. You don’t need me. I should go on without you.

I try to understand. I try to follow.

I can’t stand my misery. The sorrow.

I know I can’t force you.

But of my pain the source is you.

I’m blind. And my thoughts are scattered.

I try. But my mind is battered.

I ask myself, why can’t you love me…

I blame myself.

Why can’t I stop me!?

I should forget about you. You don’t want me. I should go on without you.

I should be sleeping, but I’m afraid I might be dreaming… - of you.

Cause even though I’d like to not see you ever again,

So I might finally forget why I’m holding this pen,

Every inch of me, dies to catch a glimpse…. – of you

Hope & Heartbreak

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 16:37:00 +0200

I never realized it was over.

Yeah, I ran out on you…but I was hoping you’d catch me…

And now I can’t even warm myself with a hair-dryer, cause it reminds me of you.

I didn’t see that you made a choice, way before I made you decide…

I’m wishin I could cry. It’s all I wanna do…but you left me dead inside.

All that’s left is Hope and Heartbreak.

Do you still remember what you told me that day?

Right now my world is all right…

You chose the cloud and I would lay with you all night.

As we were dancing in the dark,

I told you a year is a lot of time

And we might not expect what we will find.

You didn’t know what I was saying or where I got that idea from.

We may not see eye to eye when the time has come.

And there’s a chance, we won’t ever have another dance.

All that’s left is Hope and Heartbreak.

Do you still remember what you told me that day?

Right now my world is all right…

You chose the cloud and I would lay with you all night.

You couldn’t see why I wouldn’t be at your graduation.

You didn’t know, what would blow us apart.

It’s been a year and you don’t need an explanation.

I left you.

And even though I said I know this is it.

I couldn’t picture that it is the end.

I swear, I still can’t believe that this is the end.

I didn’t see that you made a choice, way before I made you decide…

I’m wishin I could cry. It’s all I wanna do…but you left me dead inside.

All that’s left is Hope and Heartbreak.

Do you still remember what you told me that day?

Right now my world is all right…

You chose the cloud and I would lay with you all night.

There’s a million things I could say, but there’s no way I will anymore.

I made a fool of me, when I fell for you.

I told you everything a girl would die to hear.

And you know what’s the funny thing?

I didn’t even play a game. Just to make it clear.

It’s still what I feel to this very day.

I didn’t lie when I said you were beautiful

There was never a doubt in my mind that I wanna be with you.

[How you really feel for me. I didn’t see coming.]

Sitting here wasted and wounded…

I’m hooked on you, like an addict to his needle.

Poison for my mind and heart.

Trouble right from the start.

When everything is said and done.

All I want is you in my arms.

Even if I fight it, you’re still the one.

Your Whispers...

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 16:02:00 +0200

Your whispers are screaming in my head.

You may feel like Alice

But it’s me who is stuck and lost in wonderland

(You say) I’m doing everything right.

Still you can’t see yourself by my side.

You don’t know what’s the reason.

And I don’t know what to believe in…anymore

Your whispers are screaming in my head.

As we’re lying in your bed.

You utter “please stop” under your breath, your body burning, but we both know you’re yearning for more.

I wanna hold you, touch you, please you and never let you go.

But every time we get too close, you just let me go.

Your whispers are screaming in my head.

Is it a silent threat or maybe a silent beg.

I can’t tell wrong from right anymore

I’ve got the keys to your heart, but you changed the lock to that door.

(You say) I’m doing everything right.

Still you can’t see yourself by my side.

You don’t know what’s the reason.

And I don’t know what to believe in…anymore

Your whispers are screaming in my head.

You’re pushing me away, when you want me to come close.

You’re telling me lies, when all I need is the truth.

We could hold the world in the palm of our hands, so why are you running from the truth ?

I have to force you to follow your feelings…

Lonely is the night, when you can’t confess, holding on to the lie inside.

Your whispers are screamin in ma head.

I can’t sleep, can’t forget.

What you said

Rings in my ears like a broken bell of freedom ….as I wash away my tears

…I felt like Alice

And you were supposed to be my Wonderland!

…It’s a shame we have to play pretend, and hurtin you was never what I meant

Music is my Mistress

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:24:00 +0200

No one to love and nobody to be loved by

All I’ve got are these notes,these chords and this melody…

To give me shelter when I’m vulnerable

To comfort me when I’m not alone but lonely

Music is my mistress…the only one I can turn to in distress

When my eyes are dark you let em shine.

And when I can’t stop the flow of noises.

You help me drown the voices in my head

I share with you my hardest pain. You’re there for me when my heart it aches.

You warm the blood, that turned cold in my veins.

I’m bruised, battered and torn, but at the end of the day you give me a smile worth worn.

The only reason I write love songs,

The only reason I keep writing love songs,

Is to remind me that it may still be alive.

So I don’t lose hope while walking this lonesome road.

Some People say “just move on”

…And I just keep on writing…

Music is my medicine - The Cure for a soul full of sin

Your eyes sold me a dream, my mind made up. Your tongue swore to it, but your heart did...

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 17:12:45 +0200

Your eyes sold me a dream, my mind made up.

Your tongue swore to it, but your heart did not.

I’m going to try to sleep and shake it off.

Promising I’m over her and I won’t get soft.

Just to wake up and pick up the phone….

wishing she would come back home…

Please Release Your Heart

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 19:27:47 +0200

She doesn’t love him or so she thinks.

“I don’t feel for him” and so the drama begins…

Her mind’s a cage and her heart’s trapped inside.

She’s arrested by her thoughts and fears,

But all I ask is please release your heart.

Please release your heart.

She can’t see clearly, and she doesn’t know why.

She don’t live freely, she never even gave it a try…

Her mind’s a cage and her heart’s been trapped inside.

She’s arrested by her thoughts and fears,

But all I ask is please release your heart.

Please release your heart.

I beg you on my knees please release your heart.

You hide deep inside

But let me shed some light.

You are playing a part, don’t show yourself the way you are.

But I can see what’s real.

I don’t know why you can’t let yourself go.

I don’t know why you don’t want your true feelings to show.

You have to be pushed to your luck

Still I can see what is real.

I know you are scared, but trust me I will catch your fall.

Just let me make it real…please let me make it real.

…Or am I the one living a fairytale?….

You don’t act how you feel

You are a slave to your thoughts

You want to chase your freedom, but you don’t know what that means.

Your words ain’t true to your heart.

Your eyes are cruel to my heart

Your lips and soul (slowly) drift apart.

You only say what you think you need.

If you open the doors and set it free,

I’ll make sure your heart won’t ever bleed again.

But it was me who lived in a fairytale all along, wasn’t it

It was my heart I wanted to keep from bleeding, wasn’t it ?

It was me who I wanted to save…wasn’t it?

but I never even stood a chance, confess it…

A Poet Who Sings

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 15:44:00 +0200

I write this confession to explain my complexion.

I never felt love that’s why I had to imagine.

And what kept me running, My heartbeat humming – The idea of love.

That it’s real and I was longing to feel…

I might be a dreamer - a hopeless romantic…

Believing in love a bit too frenetic.

You say it’s unrealistic.

but I’ve got a heart full of hope,

a mind full of love - with the right to romance.

…I’m just a poet who sings and my heart’s in your hands.

I believed in a tale of two lovers who fell for each other.

One head over heels, the other on bended knees.

It might be unrealistic. I might be too romantic.

But I’m just a man who dreams. A simple poet who sings.

Writing my vows down on our cloud.

I finally found what for so many years I just longed for.

You made everything real, I used to could only believe.

Darling, let me tell you a secret, even though my mind you can read it…

You make it better than I could have ever imagined.

It’s more than I wished for, more than I dreamed of

I might be a dreamer - a hopeless romantic…

Believing in love a bit too frenetic.

You say it’s unrealistic.

but I’ve got a heart full of hope,

a mind full of love - with the right to romance.

…I’m just a poet who sings and my heart’s in your hands.

I might have been a dreamer and we both know I’m sometimes a bit too romantic.

But you gave my dreams life, saved me from my sleepless nights.

A lot has changed since we became friends.

But I’m still a Poet… and darling you know it…

My heart will always be in your hands.

I write my songs for me But if you take the time then you’ll see For whom every song is meant to...

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 02:42:00 +0100

I write my songs for me

But if you take the time then you’ll see

For whom every song is meant to be…

Your eyes sold me a dream, my mind made up.

Your tongue swore to it, but your heart did not.

You’ve been on my mind all day

And I could swear I never even crossed yours

Even if I do it in vain, I have to play this game.

If I ever want to hear those words I need you to say.

Your eyes sold me a dream, my mind made up.

Your tongue swore to it, but your heart did not.

I have to treat you unkindly…

But baby you gotta know, that’s not how I want to be.

It’s just

I have to play my role, cause it’s my heart you stole…

And if I ever want it whole…

I have to hurt you - to protect my soul.

I’m scared…

I’m scared she’ll go…

I know she’ll say no…

I lay my hand upon her face

And I hope when it’s all over I’ll be able to forget this taste

And I wish I could say I lied

Still every word I told her will stay true…

…I’m singing this song for you.

Your eyes sold me a dream, my mind made up.

Your tongue swore to it, but your heart did not.

I’m going to try to sleep and shake it off.

Promising I’m over her and I won’t get soft.

Just to wake up and pick up the phone….

wishing she would come back home…

gaws: “And people are often unable to do anything, imprisoned as they are in I don’t know what kind...

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 19:33:08 +0100

gaws:

“And people are often unable to do anything, imprisoned as they are in I don’t know what kind of terrible, terrible, oh such terrible cage. […] Do you know what makes the prison disappear? Every deep, genuine affection. Being friends, being brothers, loving, that is what opens the prison, with supreme power, by some magic force. Without these one stays dead. But whenever affection is revived, there life revives.”

—

Vincent Van Gogh in a letter to his brother Theo (July 1880)

Funny thing is, I just wrote lyrics that kinda relate to what Van Gogh said, without ever reading this quote before.

I’ve scribed everything there is to write. We’ve spoken everything there is to say. I guess it’s...

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 21:16:00 +0100

I’ve scribed everything there is to write.

We’ve spoken everything there is to say.

I guess it’s time for me to stray…

Because you don’t deserve for me to stay

You thought of love as just a game.

I was just a toy you used to play.

You disguise your feelings

You fight all through the night

Trying to deny, with all your might, what is in your sight.

You know it’s right, but (k)now I left…

You thought of love as just a game.

I was just a toy you used to play.

Love, you want to be my dear friend.

But my value lies in my concealment.

Love, I thought you were heaven sent.

(It’s a shame we have to play pretend, and hurtin you was never what I meant)

But your meaning is in your absence.

Alice

Sun, 08 Jan 2012 04:33:00 +0100

There are things I don’t know and

Things I won’t understand.

Things I do wrong and

Things I don’t do right.

I’ll never know everything, so I might need a hand.

I feel like Alice and

You’re my wonderland.

Time with you runs like sand

Through my fingers and I can’t grasp it.

I don’t know what ya thinkin.

Still don’t know what ya feelin.

But when my heart is restless and my mind it wanders.

I close my eyes and hope for wonders.

I’m a mystery and you can’t solve it.

Make you toss and turn. You lost and learned.

Pretending we don’t care. But it’s too much to bear.

You don’t know what I’m thinkin.

Still don’t know how I’m feelin.

But when your heart is restless and your mind it wanders.

You close your eyes and just hope for wonders.

Our last goodbye was a short one.

No time to talk, no time for hugs.

Just a smile and a wave to end us.

You’re scarred and scared by the past. Afraid it won’t last.

You think it’s a dream,a fairytale, a bubble to bust.

What you see is true.

This time your soul leads you to the one you can trust.

Things could be easy but you have to believe in us.

I don’t know what ya thinkin.

I do know what ya feelin.

So when your heart is restless and my mind it wanders.

I’ll hold you tight - No more need for wonders…

Photo

Wed, 04 Jan 2012 15:23:00 +0100

Cupid's Comeback

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 17:34:08 +0100

I couldn’t fight it anymore - I told her she has me.

It didn’t change her mind - she got up and left me.

Every time she stands in front of me it feels like she tests me.

I wanted to be with her. She wants to be my besty.

Cupid’s been gone.

He disappeared. Went missing.

I’m stuck here sitting.

And waiting for his comeback, so come back.

She doesn’t want me, she said.

So why does she act like I’m the best she ever had.

I’m done, not mad. But it seems she can’t forget.

Late night, Moon light, the mood is set…

I can’t help but to want to kiss her.

I can’t help but I have to have her.

I can’t help I want nobody but her

Cause I can’t help falling - I’m on my knees for you

Cause I can’t help, I’m in love with you.

I moved on. It’s true, She once had me

A lot has changed since the last time she met me.

Now it’s her who wants to kiss me.

It’s too late though…I told her there would come a time she’d miss me.

Farewell to Love

Mon, 26 Dec 2011 14:05:00 +0100

What should you do when your mind’s at war with your heart?

What should you do if your decisions they ain’t smart?

“Go with your heart, don’t listen to reason.”

It’s gone wrong. You messed up and we both know the reason!

It’s a tug-of-war. Can’t take no more. (Your heart is soar)

I said I wouldn’t dive in, but I already was head over heels.

Wishing it was easy isn’t realistic.

Just once I want it my way - simplistic.

I’m tired of the struggle, sick of the games.

Just want to be happy/free and escape these flames.

It’s a tug-of-war. Can’t take no more. (Your heart is soar)

I said I wouldn’t dive in, but I already was head over heels.

So this is my farewell to the game of two.

It has been quite a ride. I’m fine, alright.

Take care, goodbye and PLEASE stay out of my sight.

Maybe then, I can finally sleep at night…

A bad man's world

Sun, 25 Dec 2011 16:50:10 +0100

I made you feel bad. I thought it’s what I wanted.

But at night I can’t sleep. My thoughts are still haunted.

I believed I gave you what you deserved

I toyed with something I thought I had preserved.

I thought I wanted you, but I just lust after you.

It’s a bad man’s world,

a lucky man’s game.

Another man’s girl,

Crying in the rain.

I can’t help the way I’m feeling. *for you*

Won’t change the way I’m dealin. *with you*

How you got away with stealing. *my heart*

Now I need to be healing. *it’s hard*

It’s a bad man’s world,

a lucky man’s game.

Another man’s girl,

Crying in the rain.

Never played by their rules,

Always thought of them as fools.

Didn’t want to change my ways

Stayed true, but it never pays

This is a bittersweet farewell to my old ways

It’s a bad man’s world,

a lucky man’s game.

Another man’s girl,

Crying in the rain.

It’s funny…, because it’s you who made me do this.

It’s true…., I never wanted to go through this.

It’s a shame…., but you never knew it

That I’d actually love…, making you look stupid.

I didn’t mean to hurt you…but I could try

I still want ya… but that’s a lie.

If ya ask me, I won’t deny…

You do need me, but you shouldn’t rely.

Those days are gone now, bye bye bye.